Today is just a little over a week since I lost our little baby. My heart is still sore, it feels as if the sadness and heart sore is just starting now. I'm fine during the day when I'm busy with Mouse and in and around the house, it is in the evenings when all is still that the sadness, memories and pain comes rushing in. I am sad that I will never know the feel of that little baby in my arms, I'm sad that I will miss his / her baby smell that I will never get to know. I wonder if he / she would have loved reading and painting as much as Mouse, of if he / she would have had curly hair and blue eyes like Mouse.
I can still hear the little heartbeat on the sonogram. It is so vivid and fresh in my memory. I can also remember the last one where there was no heart beat. That is also much to vivid and fresh in my memory. I miss the feeling of having our baby with me.
I know that there is a plan and purpose. God has something amazing planned for us. I also accept that He had to call our baby for His higher purpose, but I still miss our baby.
Thank you to all my family and friends that still calls, emails, facebook, etc. I truly appreciate it. Blessings to all of you.
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i'm so sorry, while I can't and won't say hey i know what your going through. I do want you to know I'm just an email or tweet away. anytime you need to talk or vent.
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I am so sorry for your loss Trudie! It is a terrible pain but what an encouragement that you are trusting in God and knowing that His wisdom and will are something we dont always understand but know is Perfect just as He is :)
I am so sorry to read this.I hope with the help of God and time that things will go a bit better.
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